The World Of Tzu Chi(Vol.112)

TZU CHI 112 39 Kyin Kyu has been receiving aid from Tzu Chi in the form of a dialysis fee subsidy to ease her financial burden. [Photograph by Lim Yen Kuan] feeling unwell. She had trouble eating and lost sleep due to breathing difficulties. She went to a clinic to seek medical consultation, but to no relief. Her condition deteriorated and persisted for a month, resulting in weight loss and lethargy. She was at her wit’s end, and eventually requested for a thorough physical examination at a more comprehensive medical facility. The medical report revealed that the toxin levels inKyinKyu’s body had exceeded the norm. The doctor advised her to be admitted into the hospital for dialysis treatment, or risk endangering her life. However, Kyin Kyu hesitated at the thought of being hospital-bound. Both her mother and younger sister were hospitalized and later succumbed to liver cancer and kidney failure respectively. Kyin Kyu was traumatized by her mother’s and sister’s ordeals and feared that she herself would end up with a similar fate, hence her reluctance to be hospitalized. Kyin Kyu finally overcame her inner dilemma and relented to being hospitalized as it was the only feasible option. Lying in the ward made her uneasy as she could not help dwelling on the prospect of her own mortality. She even conveyed her plans for her funeral arrangements to her husband in advance, yet she held on to her lingering worry for her young ones: “My children are waiting for me back home. I cannot lose this battle!” After enduring a long night at the hospital that seemed to stretch on forever, Kyin Kyu underwent her first dialysis session early the following morning. So overwhelming was Kyin Kyu’s denial over her condition that she experienced hallucinations during the treatment and attempted to forcefully remove the catheter. On several occasions, she even appeared to have